"I Found Someone," it's me.

    I thought I was a goner. I thought that the little girl who came to college would never find her way home. I thought I lost my innocence. I wanted to be someone's "saving grace." After I chose to disregard my purity for one night with a man I wanted to make fall in love with me, I thought I was forever changed. I moved on with my new life and dove back into church and my relationship with Jesus. 

    One evening, after spending the day with Spencer and the evening with my roommates, Cameron asked me how to show affection to guy best friends. I explained that I'm fearless and just tell them. This got me thinking about close guy friends that I love and care about. Dakota. I quickly pulled up snapchat and sent him a photo. Pointing to the "I love you" filter on the screen to keep it subtle, I sent it without second thought. I will always love him, no matter the pain he might have caused, I will continue to give my overflowing love to everyone. I want show the love of God to all. I thought, after getting so badly hurt by boys, I had lost that love for others. After Dakota replied and told me that he loves me too, he asked why I told him. I explained and he told me that being told that he is loved and cherished was exactly what he needed right now. My heart dropped and hurt for him. 

    On my walk back from getting dinner, I smiled the whole way home. I couldn't be more content in life. I'm pursuing my relationship with God, school, and friendships. I have amazing friends, who enjoy my company and love me. I have forgiven myself and moved on from my past. I found myself again, the girl who loves to love others, the girl who can be hurt so badly and still give second chances endless times. Never give up, even when life is hard, because someday you'll see how worthwhile the trial was, and keep loving who or what makes you happy, you never know when they may need you.