Lost in your presence

Are these the same tears I’ve cried time and time again? Suck in my same ole ruts, not knowing which way is right? I’m here again, welcoming back the same ole friends. I’m right where I don’t wanna be, now that I know what’s ahead of me. I need to break free, Someone come save me. 

I’m overthinking, overplaying things in my mind. It’s another sleepless night with you on rewind. How do I get back to reality? I’ve tried drinking, I’ve tried hurting, I’ve tried blocking out of my mind, but here I am, up at 4am again.

Like a shining a light, I hear you in the dead of night; My knight in shining armor, just here to hold my hand. You wipe my tears away, but they just don’t go away. I feel like I need to run away, because there’s no way you could love me unconditionally. Send someone my way,

who will understand all my crazy things, will love me despite what I say, and knows how to make me stay. 

We’re only eighteen days away, but I don’t know how to say these things… I’m scared that you’ll quit loving me I never want you to stop kissing me. What if we made the same mistake twice, by rushing into things? Am I too much or am I not enough? When I look at you, all I want is to love every hole, and watch you be made new. I hope you know…

I love you and I don't wanna lose you. In the heat of the moment or in the dead of night. By God's grace and by your side. I'll remain. I love you and I don't wanna lose you. In the heat of the summer sun or the cold of the winter chill. I swear it by His Word and mine. I'll remain